As many of my writer friends know, I've had a hard time reading books without either jealousy or feelings of inferiority cloud my judgement. Many warned me to start putting my self-pity in check, and they were right, but it just took a long time to get there, but I have and I'm ready to fight back!
I've got a lot of reading to catch up on, and I don't mean books on craft (Though I need all the help I can get with query letters!) but actual books. The novels, Poetry, and nonfiction books I was not able to enjoy because trying to improve my craft like I did, came at the price of not reading like I should, and used to before query letters broke my resolve more than once the last two years.
I know many writers do well thinking about books in this manner, many of my favorite writers go by their own version of the self-study method, but for me, it just makes the frustrations I already felt even worse. For me, books I read for me, and not for school, need to be fun and engage my interests.
I have to first read to enjoy it, and maybe after I can find some technique I can use to help my writing.
But first and foremost, I have to enjoy the book I'm reading, the books that made me decide to be a writer in the first place. I lost touch with that part of myself for too long, when I struggled so hard to fix my weaknesses, but I've got it back and I'll make D*** sure I'll never lose it again.
I'll explain more on what I'm doing differently for the better later on today.
May the Fantastic Fauna Be With You